Desiree Lee

People enter in and out of our lives. Some impacting us in countless ways.

A women with a heart of gold, a person who no matter what can make you smile at the worst of times. She has a life full of trials, but never lets the burdens show. Desiree made me want to be a better person. Try harder in all i do, and keep going even when the load has me on my knees..... crawl..... until an inner strength pulls you up.

She wanted to be pulled up, and now the weight is gone, she is free. So many say its the easy way out, but i know the strength she had. She was filled with a fortitude to do something hard and to so many incomprehensible. I will always look up to her. I love you Desiree and will miss you and your friendship. It gives me peace knowing you have no pain and tranquility all within you now.


Hallway Cries

I hear cries in the hallways,
Everyone already dressed in black,
All held in untitled suspense,
What is out of place?

I hear cries in the hallways,
Whispers conveyed to one another,
Emotions anxiety unsettled,
Where are you?

I hear cries in the hallways,
Everyone’s head down overwhelmed,
Filled eyes to moisture on cheeks,
Why would you?

I hear cries in the hallways,
When will I see you?

Hope-Fate-and-Happiness

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the un-returned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.

so......

Appreciate those who have hurt you, because they strengthen your heart. Appreciate those who deceive you, because they improve your wisdom. Appreciate those who abandon you, because they teach you independence. ♥

Sometimes we live in the dark for so long, that when we finally see a light at the end we are overly happy. Thoughts come racing into your mind. A special fate is calling, are you going to listen- crack the code to the secret message right in front of you- don't let this be your last best chance. Take it. Don't let your veins be filled with an un-lived life. Ghandi has said "You must be the change you wish to see in the world."

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened. Or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the f--- on." -Tupac Shakur

ready> set> !!GO!!

December 31, every year millions of people sit down to make a list. Titled "resolutions" or "goals". The thought through there heads "this year is going to be better...." Sometimes we do amazing and when December 31 rolls around again you have a smile on your face looking back proudly at all you accomplished. Most of the time though we lose track of our goals. The daily routine and strains of life get in the way.

So today I am refocusing myself. My amazing roommate Krystina and I are down for the challenge.

Mind-Body-Spirit. 21 days straight (they say that is enough to break a habit)

Mind: -Sudoku Puzzles (BRAIN WORK OUT)
-Read -yay-

Body: -Gym everyday (except Sunday because the are closed..and day of rest)
-Eat healthy breakfast-lunch-dinner (with snacks in between)

Spirit: I recently bought a book entitled 21 days closer to Christ. Everyday Stina and I will read one chapter and do the journey challenge at the end. Our souls will be enlightened or so that's the plan.

Do you ever just lay there? Hopeing almost praying your body would just give out. Into a place where nothing matters. Where there are no worries or fears, no heart ache or pain, no stress. A releif> a place of refuge. Nothing can touch you there.
Dreams may come, but there only an escape from reality. There a place where anything can happen, and you have no idea what will happen>> because all you are is dreaming.I wish I was dreaming. I'm ready for an escape. Just for a little while, and then when I wake it makes the present more valuable. Time that you cant get back, its real and what happens has consequences good and bad. Real life is not a dimension you can just wake up from with no repercussions.
-Thinking to much, my brain needs to shut off now.-

Here We GO>>

Beginning a blog, and I don't know where to start. I needed something to keep me focused, on track, and get my feelings and emotions out. This is my way of doing it. I guess this will be a project of mine, so i can look back and see where I'm going in life and how I got there.

My past is sure a colorful one, but it has taken me to this point in my life. A place where I am comfortable with myself and surroundings. I'm now a student at Paul Mitchell Hair Academy and absolutely love it. I'm finally meeting people who lift me up, and will always be there.

I gots' to say... Life is good. Of coarse there is always the down times. Although they have become fewer and I'm learning how to fight through them, never letting it take me down. I'm going to keep smiling :)